another no-go but at least i have one opportunity for the future!

i forgot to mention that i was going to another job interview at a hotel after i got done posting in my previous post. it was in forest lake and i didn't know how long it really took because this was the first interview i've had there. on google, it CLAIMED it was about 25 minutes.. so i made sure i called my lyft ride 35 minutes before the actual interview. it didn't really pay because the lyft driver took me to broadway street in minneapolis and we must've spent at least 10 minutes looking for it until i just looked on indeed on my cell phone and i seen the interview wasn't even in minneapolis and he had the building # wrong anyway. he said to me, "call someone and tell them you can't find it.." then i looked at my indeed account and i couldn't find a number for the hotel but i did message the lady who i scheduled the interview with that we were late but i told the driver about it being in the wrong city and we were on our way there. then i looked at the time and it was like 45 minutes after the interview started and he said we still had like 20 minutes to go- so i just told him to go home since he told me he was gonna have to charge me for extra miles. i should've looked at the reviews before i actually applied to the hotel. on the way back from minneapolis (where he ASSUMED the hotel was), i read the reviews about the hotel and it was rated 2 stars out of 5. one person commented about going to have breakfast there in the buffet line and how some girl with dirty hands grabbed some chips to eat out of the bowl while at the buffet and got the chips all dirty without anyone saying anything. there also was a review about people leaving junk under the heater in their hotel room. there were some other reviews but they weren't good and those are some that stuck out in my memory the most. maybe God was realigning me again so i didn't go to that interview on purpose? that's how i'm gonna take it. i thought that was the only interview i have scheduled before the product demonstrator interview next wednesday (i think) and LUCKILY, i forgot about the interview i scheduled yesterday with the clinic in minneapolis.. so i have one more chance for sure before the product demonstrator interview! i'm not gonna get my hopes up though because i had HOPED today would be different for me and i'd actually get hired.. so for my psychological safety- i'm not gonna put too much confidence in this either partly because things never go right for me anyway yet- they're still in the process of alignment and getting things right for me. i just wish it wouldn't take so damn long because i'm not sure how much longer my mental health can take this shit. laugh at that if you want, just shows exactly why i'm still not where i wanna be exactly. the nurse who fills my anodyne machine has this stupid thought that i should go to courage kenny, she obviously doesn't know or care about how they don't assist me in the way that would progress me, she assumes i don't know what i'm doing and i'm mentally disabled as well and not capable of living a NORMAL life like a happy healthy person lives (you know- work, living healthy and happy INDEPENDENTLY). if she keeps suggesting courage kenny, i'm gonna suggest she gets a new job because i don't like working with people who don't have MY best interests in mind. she figures that if i go there- i'll be so distracted and HAPPY that i'll forget about wanting to move to the east. she obviously is NOT concerned about what I want for myself. same with stupid amanda and the biggest idiot- my mom. they're too stupid to realize that IF i truly had no chance at being employed- I WOULDN'T EVEN GET THESE DAMN INTERVIEWS SCHEDULED. NO ONE WOULD WANT TO WASTE THEIR TIME SEEING IF I'M SOMEONE WHO'S ACTUALLY WORTH HIRING. so much for "SUPPORT" from you unsupportive naive pricks. good thing i'm hard headed.